i haven't wrote in here in a while, i've been so busy with school. doing 4 A-levels is no joke bro. i've also got sm hw due, which i haven't done, but oh well. i'm going to be 18 soon, which is crazy. i don't really know how to feel tbh. things kinda suck in the world ngl. but i do have kind friends and a safe home, so i am grateful for that. i just wish that everyone could be safe and happy and that 'world peace' wasn't framed as this unrealistic utopian ideal. people tell me that it is just human nature to have all these wars and inevitable, but i don't think that's true. atleast i hope it isn't. i have been happier lately, since i deleted social media off my phone. in a way i feel guilty because there is so much hurt in the world and i can just turn away and not look, whereas so many people cannot. i do want to still stay informed; i think it is important. i just am trying to work out a way to do that without social media, because it's so addictive and not good for me. but yeah anyways, have a good day.
i live in the uk and i hate the government. everyone was saying to give the new prime minister a chance and to vote Labour to get Tory out, but what they don't seem to understand is that there is barely any difference now. i couldn't even vote and yet i have to deal with what everyone else has done. yet again the government is making cuts on welfare because they 'don't have the money' and this mysterious black hole in finances has appeared, which they 100% new about before the election. but it's just such lies because the UK is like the 6th richest country in the world, yet all the people are in poverty. all they have to do is tax the billionaires, but they simply won't do it. the money is there, with the richest, but instead, yet again the poor are the ones who have to pay for it. it's just so frustrating because everyone is so brainwashed that they hate immigrants instead of billionaires. immigrants are not taking your money, the rich are. also, the goverment wants to act like they care about the civilians in Gaza, when they just don't. recently they have suspended 30 arms sales to Israel, which may sound like a good thing, but it's out of 350. which is around 8.5%. so no, that's not good enough. i just don't know how anyone could license the sales of weapons to anyone, let alone a country committing genocide and aparthied. it's sickening. join your local protest if you can, and help organise action. i really want to do more, which i will be able to when i'm 18. Free Palestine. Fuck Capitalism.
i'm still trying to write my personal statement and honestly i'm kinda sick of it. it's bad enough that it costs so much to go and you have to get really high grades, let alone that you have to make a 'personal brand' and self-commodify yourself just so they will pick you. i'm the one paying to go there, why should i also have to extensively prove to you that i am worthy of an education that i'm literally going to have to pay thousands of pounds for? it doesn't make sense. i believe Universities should be free anyway and there should be enough places so that everyone who wants to get an education can. it literally benefits a country to have higher educated and more skilled workers. instead though they want to spend our money killing children abroad and destroying the planet. i want to go to uni to learn and to not have to go to work fulltime in a job i see as pointless. i hate the way they use fear at school - 'if you don't do this you will fail and end up in poverty'. as if it's people's own fault that they're poor (it's not). i just hate how they are constantly peddling the narrative that if you just try hard enough and believe it strong enough then you can be really successful and rich. but that's just not true. because it cannot be true for everyone. capitalism requires poverty and homelessness. it requires some people to succeed and some to fail. and to be saying it's because people just didn't try hard enough is honesty just riduculous and victim blaming. it's the fault of the system and if you fail to recognise that you are doing an injustice. so fuck you, you stupid motivational speakers that come to my school. i will not sacrifice my joy and relationships just to enhance my career, i will not succeed at the detriment of others, and i will not get rich through the exploitation of others. how dare you even insinuate for a second that billionaires deserve their wealth and worked for it! get those delusions out of your head.
so, i was watching youtube and thinking about Kamala Harris as president (i just want to prerequisite this by saying that i am not american, nor am i of voting age, so it doesn't really matter who i would or would not vote for, but anyway). Obviously, i would never vote for Trump as he's literally a fellon and like evil. We don't want Trump to win, that much is obvious. But is Kamala really that much better of an option? i just don't think she is. The video i was watching did critique her and did say that she is not the president that those coconut memes want us to believe. i just feel like a lot of people who claim to be radical are just not committed enough. i just refuse to believe that this is the best possible option and that having Harris as president is going to make much change at all. yes, Trump says horrible things, but policy-wise are the republicans and democrats really that different at all? can the americans just not be bothered to actually do anything to change this? you guys are just so brainwashed atp, but i don't totally blame you because i did fall for all those tiktok's too and think that maybe Harris could be a good president. however, i'm 17 and from a different country so it's a bit of a difference. this is kinda messy, but i want to talk about it properly at some point when my thoughts can be more nuanced, well-written and thought through. got a lot of homework to do now though, so idk when that will be. the main point is though, that the lesser of two evils is still evil. we know that Trump is bad, so if he is elected surely there is more likely to be opposition to awful policies he makes. if we sit back and relax, assured that we have voted for the candidate that is "not as bad", we refrain from doing anything actaully beneficial in the world and just allow them to get away with whatever they want because they are supposedly the better option.
I'm trying to write my personal statement rn. can i write of my contempt for personal statements in my personal statement? can i talk about how much i hate the institution of universities, how the system is unfair, how they fund wars and climate change and how it desperately needs change, and still get in? could i even get in anyways? someone please let me know. thanks.